I felt like I was in the middle of the movie Groundhog Day. I'd wake up each day with a smile on my face, telling myself that I was going to ignore it and be the bigger person.
More and more stuff would happen- I would lose my smile, I would lose myself. I would lose my temper on my kids and husband- trying to be the bigger person was just not working.
People would ask me what was wrong and it was the same old story, he said/she said. When I'd tell it out loud to someone not involved, it sounded ludicrous. When I'd tell my family and close friends how I was being treated, they'd always ask me why I was allowing people to treat me that way or how could someone even say such things about me to begin with.
I was trying to be upbeat and always see the good. I bought a book called Everyday a Friday by Joel Osteen to help me find the good. The premise behind the book is that people are always happier on Fridays and how can you make every day like a Friday.
You don't need to read a lot of pages to get a message that you probably need to hear. I pretty much read 3-5 pages every other day. Even if I read the same pages over and over, they lift me up and remind me to see the good and be the good.
Within the first chapter, I came across this phrase over and over, " never let anyone steal your joy". That is a phrase I carry with me all the time - NOTHING AND NO ONE is going to steal my joy!!!
What I realized was I was letting these gossipers and bullies steal my joy, I was letting them control my emotions and affect my life, something I had the power to stop.
"The abuser, bully, or critic isn't hurt by our anger or bitterness. We're just poisoning our own lives with it." There are just so many awesome points in this book! I never want to feel like I felt last year or go through that again (I don't think I would ever allow it again). I don't want any of my friends or family to feel like that either. If you are looking for something uplifting to read, I'd suggest give this book a try.
Sometimes you feel lost in a situation, like there is no way out. Tell your story to someone close, someone not involved in the situation. Hearing it out loud is oftentimes the key to realizing how foolish it actually is. Your joy is yours and no one else's- don't forget that!